it's all a show

i used to brush away how my friend andrew used to tell me, clubbing is bad. i always tell him, as long as it isn't habitual, sometimes letting yourself go just for that night is a good thing.

but yeterday, i realised it isn't really as simple as that. me and my friends? we go there to have a good time, have fun and enjoy each other's company. when you're on alcohol, everything's a blast. you can dance sexy, you can drink more, you can dance with a hot girl next to you, you can do anything. you think you can.

but in reality, you are no different before that few glasses. if you dance like a monkey, you dance like a monkey. if you think you can drink more, you'll know better soon enough. if you dance with a hot girl, maybe she's just as drunk. or most likely it's the lights.

the club, is the devil's manifestation. i'm sorry it sounds exaggerated and harsh. but if you take time, one day, to not drink so much and look around, it really is scary. the lights are flashing, you see sweaty faces in different stages of emotions. some are crying, some are laughing, some are slutty. strangers are dancing intimately with each other, fights break out. people push around, people trip and fall over stairs.

is this something we really want to see? everyone is dressed up, but everything else is in a mess. and while i will go again if there's an occasion, i'm trying to bring across this point of obsession with something that's supposedly cool, but in reality you don't really know why.

some photos

admiring the sunset

a little bit of perhentian

when the world is at peace, and there's only the sound of the waves..

run run run

i just came back from work! and though i may be freaking tired, i am going jogging.

i was thinking about it last night, but a comment from my friend this morning decided for me.

i was at the bus stop oppisite, and i wasn't too sure if it was him. anyway, i think he pretended he never see me. so i gave him a ring and waved frantically! anyone could see my enthusiasm, i was radiating it. i even like to think i was so enthu, it was contagious and i spread some joy this gloomy morning.

and so he picks up the phone and says, "where are you?" and i say, "opposite!" and he says,

"huh. that fei zai (fat boy) is you ah! wah i cannot recognise you from far leh. see you put on so much weight! few days back like lose, today.. wah even more fat!"

after i put down the phone, the morning became, if possible, even more gloomy.

SO I'M GOING DOWNSTAIRS TO RUN!! but not before i get some breakfast. hehehe.

fat fat fat

firstly to update, i've been putting on weight. my t-shirts dun really fit as well.. and my jeans? let's not even go there. suddenly my life has become belt free.. cos i no longer need them. I MUST EXERCISE! but when?

met up with dan, qq and yihao yesterday for taiwan porridge at oasis. maggie and joyce didn't come leh. =( haha.. then started talking about going for a trip before year end! wahahaha.. so excited!! we finally settled for taiwan (go around the different cities on train), krabi ("sun again!" says qq) or star cruise ("budget!" says yihao). actually i'm most excited about taiwan but as long as a trip materialises i think i'll be happy enough. i hope everyone can go!!

saw amanda and roy this week as well.. went to holland v for mexican food! not bad.. but bit ex. but it's a nice place.. can't remember the name of the restaurant.. but will be going there with my grandparents and aunt next week. and.. i scratched my car already!! so fast right?? lucky it's damn small can't really see. P-plate drivers stay clear of the car park behind parkway!

fel.. mr amos haven't call me yet. i think i must go downstairs and knock door already! haha.. i need $$$!!! and oh, i didn't get the project that i mentioned in the previous post. but i've just finished the first draft of the brochure for KCS medical. meeting them on monday to see what can be improved. i'm quite pleased with it actually.

so to friends who i haven't seen in a long time, I MISS YOU GUYS! joyce, remember to meet up soon to take the cage and doggy bowl.

i'm so tired!

i've not had enough sleep since comex started.. damn tired now! argh and i haven't been blogging either.

well, in brief i think i'm little bit richer =p, very tired, love shonia - for sending the minties and chocolates all the way from australia!! thank you so much!!! work's tmr and i feel damn sian!!! my brain's almost dead and so is my vocab. i don't even know why i'm still typing!

okay i should stop..

but yet! i have to tell you that i watched rat-a-too-ee today!! and it was good.. and i'll be catching it with my grandparents and sis next week probably. and my next 2 days off will be eaten into because of some STUPID community day thing that we're involved in. damn it!

i should sleep now. and oh! i just sent my portfolio, hope i like what i hear.

GOOD NIGHT!